Early morning awake from bed. Feeling much better compare to last night. Yesterday was just a mess day for me. Early morning my PM talk to me about the recent project. Afternoon my senior that troublesome enough come to me and tease me here. Unknown feeling attack as not sure what’s going happen for my task. I know I have to do a preparation for everything.
Yesterday was not my day. Every little things just goes wrong. Every little things just go opposite my way.
1. Thinking to go gym – end up friends need to work for OT.
2. Thinking to shop at Minitoons for some gift purpose – end up the branch at marina square Close down. Argh…
3. Decide to have a short walk to ease my woes at Esplanade – end up drizzling and have to seek for shelter at the library
4. Due to all stress and unanswerable question that I have in mind, cause me forget about my dinner, after feeling gastric only I realize …oopss..my dinner!
5. Feeling sick and tired, I already dun mind to catch a cab to back home straight, first cab stop – long Q ( expected an hour waiting) so I run away to the second one. Manage to get a cab in few min – but the driver tell me sorry im in rush to woodlands n ask me wait for another one ! grrrr….FINE !! Im still patiently walk to the 3rd taxi stop – Long Q also….argh! I give up..still MRT best for me.
6. Finally reach home, after bath preparing to have early rest, but my landlord Smoke the house with ‘kemenyan’ duh….what a jokes!! I was thought of fire happening or my air-con going wrong….once I open my room door – oh gosh… ( feeling to say can I jz faint away…)
Fine fine and fine.I urge myself to calm down. A dramatic day just happen once in a blue moon. Just be cool!! Since need some ventilation, I jz open my window. Go online and chat with a friends, she show me a blog. Is about a young guy age 29 tht undergo all cancer surgery story. It really remind me about all I have in life, it remind me to cherish all I have.
People always say: ”life is jz unfair.” For me, life cant judge by fair or unfair, but how you value it with all you have. Human tends to chasing for something that don’t have and never get a time to stop and look back what they already have in hand. We should cherish and hold tight for everything we have.
** After reading the blog, few words come to my mind –
Thursday morning, suddenly feel that the world is so big and I’m jz so small. The woes here were jz seem nothing to the other part of the world. 365 days full of mystery But my love to you will never jz a fantasy but a destiny for you and me.
In a Confused and Confusing mode. Cant have a clear mind to have a clear view. Cant get any further verification? Yes i suppose. and Why ? Worry for a lost i suppose. Perhaps im too shy to ask and too proud to lose.
What's more i can do beside keep this grey area remaining still. A buddy said it will only cause tired for all. Emmm...i agree...but nothing much can be done. No one prefers in confused or confusing mode, but it just happen anyway.
** When the mist fade away....it brings the answer..... =)
Today 7 of Feb, Sunny Day, alone at the Pacific Coffee for my favourite drinks - Latte Order a Latte, the waiter ask whether with sugar syrup, No, of course. Prefer to have the original taste for the coffee. It taste bitter, but feel good with it. Just like life, Never be Easy but Enjoy it !~
Enjoying the time to be alone while waiting for friends. Steal a bit time to drops some nonsense here. Meeting up a friends last nite. Crapping all about recession. Feeling numb for all...may be i just live in my own fantasy ? anyway i do know whats happening in this cruel world. but whats to worry as life still go on n have to enjoy it.
Same old question that everyone do keep asking me. Still single? why so choosy mate? emmm....i wonder for those question....did i? haha. Job getting more fun as colleague getting along better. If Job busy n OT i will still pull my long face, ^@^ hihi. i should feel bless as now everywhere retrenchment and pay cut. im the lucky one? i suppose !
Cny over soon. A brand new year start. A brand new me going on my life journey with all my positive energy. Will this bring me luck this year ? i wish of course! Strolling....strolling for the day.......rock on....~!
When things cant change - Adapt It ! When things cant forget - Admit It !
After a long break for cny, and back again to the reality country – Singapore. Mess feelings I have to cause me awake for whole night long. What I should do ? I really dunno and I have no answer. Whole night long with all nonsense in mind. something that already throw away but I suppose it still in recycle bin I suppose and somehow it accidentally recovered back. Argh…all this un-used recovered trash cause memory overflow. All I wish is all this wont cause any heart-disk crash at last. Haha. What a jokes!
For this long break, everyone nagging for me for the same thing. Emmm….sinking deep into my memories. Get to meet a friend coincidently in a shopping mall, get in touch with some friends as well. But all the conversation, all the topic cause me sinking sinking and sinking again….floating floating and floating as well.
Overall the long break beside fun still fun enough. Enjoy the reunion, appreciate all the time at home sweet home as well.
Memories always give u the illusion, Memories always give u the fantasy, Memories always blinded your heart and mind. But it just precious and hardly to let go…….
The year of 2009…the year of Ox the year for me to strive for my dream …. =)
